32 weeks

32 weeks!  

Part of me feels like I have been pregnant with this baby for a looooonnnng time, and the other part of me absolutely can't believe that it's less than two months until delivery! 

I have so enjoyed being completely up and off of bedrest!  It has been so much fun dropping my kids off and picking them up at their preschool each Tuesday.  I've enjoyed getting to know their classmates and teachers a bit more as I unpack their backpacks and watch them settle into their classrooms in the morning. When I picked up Emma a few weeks ago for the first time, she wriggled out of her teacher's hand and started running for our Tahoe.  "That's my mom!!!!" she screamed at the top of her lungs!  It was definitely one of my favorite moments ever.

Isaac talks to the baby a lot.  As we were getting shoes on for church yesterday morning, Isaac put his head up to my belly and said, "Baby, you're going to church this morning where you're going to learn all about Jesus."  Yesterday, he also said, "If you're a boy, I'm going to be fine.  If you're a girl, I'm going to be fine."  About a month ago, Isaac cried--with tears running down his face--for a brother.  "Mommy, I just need a brother so bad.  I need a wrestler!"  Since then, we have emphasized over and over that God is going to send us the right baby for our family, and only He knows if this baby is a boy or girl.

I was playing with Emma the other day and called her "my baby girl," and she immediately said, "I'm not a baby.  The baby is in your tummy!"  (And, she's right--she turns 3 this month and isn't really a baby at all anymore!) 

Dave and I are halfway done with our Birth Boot Camp class which we take one night each week.  We've had a lot of fun going to class together, because it has doubled as a weekly date night since we usually eat dinner together downtown by the hospital.  As of now, baby is still breech.  Baby's head has been tucked under my right ribcage for as long as we've known.  I've done a bit of reading and research on how to get baby to turn, which led me to this position earlier this weekend.  :)  I've also started going to a chiropractor who is trained in the Webster Technique to help baby to turn.  As much as we'd love for baby to turn, our primary prayer is for a healthy delivery, mom, and baby--C-section or not.     

And, baby also is a perfect little (actually, not little at all) shelf for "our" bedtime snacks.

One of my favorite things is when Isaac shares his name ideas.  

So far, here are his options:

girl:  Jenny, Landrie, Harper, Shari, Larsen, Flower, Slover Clover, Elsa

boy:  Ashton, Nolan, Buffalo, Cowboy

And, Emma has only had one idea so far: Emma :)

Our pastor started a new series based on Abraham and Sarah, and yesterday he spoke about their infertility.  As part of his message, our pastor shared a few stories of people in our church who have struggled with infertility.  One example that he shared involved an infertile woman coming to acceptance with her infertility as she realized that God was powerful enough to give her a baby, but also powerful enough to not give her a baby.  There have been countless times that I have been so thankful that God didn't answer my plans for a pregnancy on my timetable, because I absolutely can't imagine life without Isaac and Emma.  They have given David and me more joy than I ever could have imagined on my darkest days of longing for a baby.  I'm so thankful that God held back a pregnancy during that entire time so that Isaac and Emma could be in my arms.  I'm humbled and overjoyed to now share this pregnancy with them!  Praise God for His perfect plans!

"For My thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways My ways," declares the Lord."As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways and My thoughts than your thoughts."  Isaiah 55:8-9 (NIV)